Thursday 29 November 2007

it was my birthday yesterday and i didnt get to talk to my Mistress as i was out with family and friends. i really missed Mistress and wished She could have been there, but i was very happy to get a birthday message from Her. Mistress is wonderful :)

Monday 26 November 2007

i talked to my Mistress tonight, it was wonderful to speak to Her again after 3 nights without Her. i told Her about my weekend and then She taught me a valuable lesson, i needed to be punished for coming without permission on thursday. Mistress ordered me to get some pepper and put a mound of it on the table, i then had to lick and eat it all. This really burned my tongue, mouth and throat. It hurt and brought tears to my eyes, but i knew i deserved it. Mistress was kind enough to let me get some water by inserting the dildo into a glass of water and sucking the water off the dildo. i was allowed to do this for 2 minutes but it wasnt enough. Mistress allowed me to earn an extra minute by receiving 20 spanks with the paddle on my ass. i then got as much water as i could from the dildo for the next minute. This eased the burning in my throat. What water was left i poured over my head on Mistress's orders, as i didnt drink it all and didnt request to earn the right to drink more by receiving more spankings. Mistress then ordered me to repeat the training i failed on thursday, i had to open my bedroom door and masterbate while moaning like a slut, but not cum. i did this to Mistress's satisfaction and Mistress was kind enough to let me cum. Mistress then allowed to to go to bed and i went to bed happy. i learned to never cum with permission again and to always obey Mistress's orders exactly.
i got back from my weekend away last night and im so happy to be back so i can see my Mistress again. i missed Her so much, She was always on my mind and i was sad to be away from Her. i had an empty feeling in my stomach when i thought about Her, the weekend would have been perfect if my Mistress could have been with me. i cant wait to see Her tonight.

Thursday 22 November 2007

i am ashamed of myself tonight. my Mistress gave me permission to masterbate because i am going away for the weekend and i wont see Her, and i let myself down by cumming without permission. i am such a stupid boy, i cant believe how disrespectful i was. i just hope Mistress will forgive me. i need to grow up and stop being so selfish.

i have been thinking about what it would be like to be living with my Mistress and being Her slave 24/7, it is something i ache for. To be able to worship Her every day would be so wonderful. After today i know that i have a long way to go before this will happen, i really disappointed Her. i want to learn to be a better slave and give myself totally into my Mistress's care, i want to make Her proud of me and want Her to love me as i love Her. But at the moment i am just a stupid worm with a cock. i want to grow as a slave and promise myself that i will. my Mistress deserves the best and i want to give Her that.

Wednesday 21 November 2007

i didn't see my Mistress last night and i really missed Her. Even though i had a busy day today Mistress was always on my mind, i miss Her words, Her attention, Her approval. i hope to see Her tonight.

Tuesday 20 November 2007

my Mistress was feeling tense last night and used me to relieve Her tension and i was happy to serve Her. i had to give myself 40 spanks with the paddle while She watched and then sit on the dildo until it was completely in. Then She ordered me to fuck my ass with the dildo, doggy style while She watched me. When She was satisfied, i then had to masterbate without coming. Mistress's tension was relieved and later when i went to sleep on the floor, my ass ached but i was content that i had pleased Her. Mistress makes me be a good submissive to Her and i thank Her for this.

Monday 19 November 2007

i am now owned

i am a very lucky boy, i now have an owner, the wonderful Mistress Anna. Mistress is a natural Domme that brings out my true nature. W/we chatted last night for the first time in 4 nights and it was a pleasure. i told Mistress that i had planned a weekend away with friends before i was collared by Her and Mistress is letting me go :)

Mistress reminded me that in future i must ask permission with some nipple clamp torture and i learned my lesson well. my nipples are still very tender this morning and will be for the rest of the day. Mistress also ordered me to sleep on the floor for the rest of the week, this is to remind me that i am Her property and i thank Her for that.